perfectionism

"Teach Me/I'm Not Enough"

Our choices are speaking to us through how we feel.  I'm feeling that my choice of attending certain groups is not serving my best interest.  I'm feeling that if I have to listen to one more someone, or many someones, offering something to assist us I just might scream.  While the intention comes from a good place, I'm over it.  That's just me.  But could it be you too?

It's a balance worth creating; working on oneself and being joyful.

For example, I've noticed I've been sliding out of balance.  I've been frequenting women's groups and networking events.  The upside is I'm meeting some very nice people.  The downside is I'm surrounded by women striving to be more and being spoken to by women wanting to teach us to be our best (better) selves.  More financially successful, more skilled, more better at something.  You may wonder if there's a problem with that?  Well, frankly, yes!

Because I'm sitting smack dab in the middle of "I'm Not Enough" energy and I FEEL anything but empowered.  I FEEL yucky.  And, surprisingly my growth feels stunted not expansive.

Aligning With Our Purpose - It Isn't Possible...

...to make a mistake.  All it takes is a dance.  To realize our dreams takes perseverance, action, letting go of total control, and experiencing joy.  It isn't an intimidating dance, just a series of steps.  When I dance I have some unique moves, especially when driving.  In the car I sing and dance and only hold back when I pull up to traffic lights.

My desire is to take those joyful feelings when I dance and sing in my car, and to also feel them in everything I do.  And, from what I've experienced, aligning with our purpose takes a good amount of lightheartedness.  We create our best expression of ourselves by aligning with that which brings us joy...

TMI

When I share with people that I give talks, I also share that I'm nervous about public speaking.  Totally TMI right?  However, even Adele tells people she's scared when she sings to crowds, sometimes she tells the crowds just before she begins another song.  "I love you but you really really scare me", is what I remember she said. 

When the glitter wore off

My interest in spirituality began with looking for the glitter, not that it registered as that at the time.  I searched high and low for information, answers, the best teachers, and the more woo-woo the more glittery they were to me, and the more interested I was.  Even though I spent a lot of time with the glitter I don’t feel I wasted my time because it led me to learning that wasn’t what I was looking for after all.  It’s taken many years but I found what I was looking for.  It’s different for everyone...

Why I Love Painting and Writing

I was emailing someone about this yesterday…that I usually consider myself a very observant person.  I shared however, that after I finish a painting, I look back at the original subject matter (usually a photo I’m painting from), and notice something that I hadn’t initially observed.  I feel I miss something…either a shape, the light, colors, or an emotion...