Today I went somewhere, physically and spiritually. I went for two reasons and I stayed for only one. What I'm experiencing in my life is beautiful, joyful, and at times...not overwhelming...but more...mind boggling. Today I followed my murmurations and sat with people who share in all this...whatever all this is for them. They have a place where they can physically go to be with each other. And, I didn't realize how much I crave this.
I'm not really ever alone. I always have the support of something that I can't see but that's always with me, supports me, guides me, and loves me unconditionally. But being with people who might understand what I'm feeling and practicing is important too.
Interesting to me, the other reason I went there I'm no longer interested in pursuing. This was a gift today and I don't desire anything else. And today was a good day to show up. I've had a rare bee in my bonnet yesterday and the day before, still buzzing around even this morning as I started my day. It's about wanting to spend more time writing, to noodle with a talk I'll be giving, to research leads and look into some legal things to create this new idea I have, to bring people together to share their inspiration. But, instead, I spent the past two days doing what I felt I should do... favors, errands, cooking (but not cleaning). It's becoming more and more important that whatever I'm doing, I'm doing with as much joy as I can. And I desire to allow for more time each day to play and work on my dreams and ideas, even longer meditations if I feel like it.
I exhaled when I entered that room today and it felt like that bee buzzed off to somewhere else. I allowed myself to show up today as just me, just someone who wanted to feel all that love, and it was a very nice thing indeed. Today, in this particular place, I experienced a congregation of individuals without compromising my own ideas. I felt a community of tremendous love...stayed afterwards, received and gave a hug, and ate chocolate chip cookies. Murmurations are a good thing to follow, and I probably follow them more than I realize.