I understand what it's like to feel as though something's missing, to be underwhelmed by life, to not see one's value, to miss a larger view.
In my case, I tried to follow along, checking off as many of the boxes of life as I could tolerate. In order to make my life look like it was working rather well, and to just feel a little bit better, I made a good effort to force the parts of my life perfectly into place.
How was that working out for me?
Well as fortunate and as nice looking of a life that I'd created for myself, I couldn't shake that crummy feeling I'd always had. I didn't fit in anywhere, from social circumstances, to career, to family, to something as mundane as running errands.
My core belief of worthlessness originated from long-ago circumstances, and I'd allowed those experiences to define me, and even when older I allowed it to inform how I felt about others including all of humanity. It was no small thing. Those fake beliefs came with me to my work, to each and every relationship. Everywhere I went they tagged along.
When I got fed up with my limiting beliefs running my life, that was when things started to get really interesting. Shifting my ideas, thoughts, and habits, I took my old patterns and hugely limiting perspectives to the curb. Over the next few years everything within and without started to shift and pretty incredible experiences started coming my way.
I didn't do this alone. Reaching my wits end was the beginning of opening to assistance, and being open to various teachers and guides. My various teachers come and go, while new ones arrive, but I will never forget those who took me under their wing and offered me so much assistance.
My journey is fascinating, often humorous, challenging, what was a little bit mind-blowing is now becoming the new normal. I'm so grateful and wouldn't change a thing, even the less than happy times.
Each of us has a role to step into, to stretch oneself, acknowledge and embody our passion and run with it if we so choose. I choose. I'm living proof that it's never too late and that anyone can change their patterns if they desire, create their intention and more, all while walking their own path their way.